I already walked for half an hour, plus made my bed. It doesnt feel like enough.
I woke up feeling huge. Absolutley massive.
I hate this.

My sitter ratted me out to the nurse, so I got in bed before it became a big deal.

After breakfast I will do another half hour, and if they wont let me walk I will have to figure out how to move some other way. Theres always the excuse that I need to do my PT work.

Im anxious about the day, about having a nurse I dont feel comfortable with, about having to ask someone to hold my hands for tube feeding. What I really want is to throw a fit right now. I feel so big its making me insane.

I wish I could just sit still and cope, but I feel angry at myself if im not moving. I feel like I am failing, like I shouldnt be giving in...and I have to put up some sort of a fight.